I still believe in Fairies...

...coz once in a while, right in the middle of an ordinary life, love gives us a "fairy tale”. :)

Unison...

....It is a great feeling to see two hearts unite....after a row, an arguement, a cold war, an ego problem, or simply an insecurity. I saw one unison today. It left me with so much of happiness. It was crazy, funny, cute, stupid, full of warmth, love, and hatred - all at the same time. Some experience. God bless them. I sincerely do hope and pray.

And for my sheer records:

Approximately 50 emails exchanged in order to make that happen. :- )

Low on productivity at work though, I did fairly well elsewhere in my benchmarks. And I am glad.

Some real sense of relief after a real long time. You like to see people you care for, SMILE. Don't you? And then you see them smiling and grinning and so full of life. That's all there is to this life - the real joy comes when you see others happy.

At the end of the day, exhausted - I wandered endlessly for some solace myself. A beautiful smile and a warm hug, from a lost friend was all that I hoped for. Guess what? I got that too. Tango, you are one in a million.

A brilliant day. Thank you God today for all that you gave me.

For Love...

...with Valentine's day almost over in another hour and a half, what I want to share with the world is something that I have borrowed from someone else ...'Just don't give up trying to do what you really want to do. Where there is love and inspiration, I don't think you can go wrong.' And yes, do figure out that love and inspiration is there...that's very important.

Don't give up. Keep loving and keep living life everyday, full of love and happiness...God Bless.

The End!

Disclaimer: I started it and it had to end and so here it is..but I don't want to write such stories again - especially those which have any kind of resemblance to a real life scenario...it does not leave me feeling good...and so while I conclude the 'Fire & Ice' post, am sorry if it hurts you somewhere.

Sometimes, just sometimes, you find the meaning to the words you just threw up in the air. A similar thing happened with me as well. While I was writing my posty on Fire & Ice, I was happy with what I created – it almost looked like a real story to me. Except, the end of the story. I did not have an end to define for the story. Agreed the fire was there. I also agreed on the icy chill that followed. But to question the chill was more than important. Why was there a chill? I stopped. I did not have an answer. I let the story be. I just let it be, concluding with a sentence that we will see where the story goes.

Just before I went to bed the same evening – I knew the end of that story. Sometimes, just sometimes, you find the meaning to the words you throw up in the air. Sometimes, there are people around to show you or rather lead you to the end of a story. I was unfortunately lucky this time. Although it was a fiction for me but I guess it wasn’t so for someone out there. What follows is this:

Lack of expression was the key, the reason, and ‘the be all and end all’ of the story. The fire, though ablaze, wasn’t ready to be seen, to be felt, to be heard, to just be there. Laying blames on each other, not realizing the feeling within, they just drifted apart, picking up their lost pieces. Or perhaps they just stopped caring for their relationship. They did not realise that no relationship can ever work on an automatic mode. You have to work towards nurturing, caring, and supporting a relationship. "When someone hurts us, we should write it down in sand where winds of forgiveness can erase it away. But, when someone does something good for us, we must engrave it in stone where no wind can ever erase it.". They did the reverse of this. Those markings on the stone are all that is left of their relationship.

The worst you can do in a dying relationship is to believe that it is dying.

There was nothing more for me to state – it comes straight from someone who goes through the pain and hence I leave it at that. God bless.

(P.S:I am sorry for the ‘quote’ unquote here.)

To Do List of its kind...

My last post got a little heavier than I expected it to be. See, expectations rule the world. I actually don’t like myself for writing that post. And I want to make up for it.

People relate to thoughts the way they see them, which is fair..sometimes you don’t realize that the way you see things and read them is so different from how the other person reads it. That’s called perspective. What plays on your mind the most gets related to what you see or read. I have encountered that myself very many times. Okay…so like I said…I want to make up for it…here goes a post am glad to cherish here. I am sure it touches your heart somewhere too, like it touched mine. All ye fellas in love – god bless. At the cost of not repeating myself, any idea/thought with resemblance to any real life….and you know what I mean. Cheers.

Before I begin, a toast: You have not truly lived your life until you live the depth of it with someone you love! Live it and feel it. While you would have done so much, there is always room for more in love...

To Do List of a KIND:

Be your best friend.
Get caught with you in the rain.
Dance with you in the rain.
Stargaze on a clear night.
Watch the sunset together.
Spend all day with you doing nothing.
Walk on a beach on a Moonlit night.
Be proud of you than I already am.
Go on a carriage ride through the park.
Do a crossword together.
Have a disagreement and debate it out.
Go for a twilight horseback ride.
Spend my life with you.
Have our picture taken together.
Eat ice cream with you.
Go to a museum together.
Talk to each other using only body language.
Give you space when you need it.
Accept you totally and completely – with flaws.
Sing with you and Sing a song for you, playing the guitar
Discuss current events in a heated debate.
Have you see the error of your ways from aforementioned heated debate and make up to it in my own ways.
Carve our names into a tree/table.
Paint with you.

Go for a walk at dusk together.

Be one with you.

Spend all night thinking of 101 sweet things to do for you and with youHold you and gaze into your eyes and realize how much I love you and tell you.

Blindfold you and take you somewhere romantic.

Hear your heartbeat.
Give you a butterfly touch.Go roller/ice skating together.

Go hiking/camping together.

Go for a car rally with you as my navigator.

Have a fight, real fight.
Make up to you in my own way.
Share a plate of food everyday.

Build a beautiful home and decorate it with you.
Shop for you the way I want to.

Go on a road trip across mountains, beaches... far away into out dreamland

Count Thunders together during a thunderstorm.

Envelop you in my soul.

Cook your favorite meal/meals.
Drink that first cup of tea with you.
Look at the first ray of sun together and the last one.
Make a house in the sand together.
Write your name on the sand.
Whisper to you in the middle of the night.
Get drunk and sloshed with you.
Drive to an unknown land with you.
Shout your name across valleys, in mist and fog. (!!)
Cuddle up to you in cold and shiver.
Get wet in rain with you again and again.
Run with you to a mountain top. And on a beach side.
Gaze at you and let eyes do the talking.
Know you better than you know yourself.

Plant a tree in a yard together.
Dedicate a song for you in the middle of the crowd on a stage.
Look over at you during an office/military/family/friendly party and have you know without me saying a word - that I love you.

Say 'I love you' in 89 different ways - in 89 different countries, 89 times.

Hold you when you're at your saddest and comfort you when you need it the most.

Be the one you come to for that comfort and holding.

Wipe away the days' stresses and issues, with just one hug.
Go to an orphanage with you.
Picture capture you away to glory.
Write a book on you. (!!)
Write a poem for you.
Make a poster for you out of your pictures. (!!)
Surprise you with what you never expect.
Teach you what you know the best.
Count the wrinkles on your face.
Give you a rose every day.
Count the salt and pepper on your hair.
Go to all the places we would have visited over and over again.
Grow old with you.

Concluding: Even if a day should go by when I don't say "I Love You" May there never be a moment go by without you knowing that I do. Amen.

Right Here Waiting...

where ever you are, whatever you do - I will be right here, waiting for you.

Such a cliched line which every lover would love to use once in a lifetime for his/her love.

I say I would never say that. I may have said that before. But with age, thoughts change. Why would I? Why would I keep waiting for the other person, when the other person decides to move on in life. I cannot and will not demean my existence to prove the world to someone else, who's world you are anyway no longer now. I wonder what goes into the minds of people when they say this. Romantic? Is that the word? Do they really mean it? How often do they really do it? I remember writing this before - I don't know of any person who kept waiting for years altogether for someone. Then was it all bookish? Or is the feeling any less? Or it is filterated?

I understand that I should not take it literally and that it is just a way of many such expressions. A way to show what the other person means to you that you are ready to wait forever for that person. But what if it was an expression in itself. Would I believe it? NO. Do I think anyone else should belive it? NO. Do I think anyone can actually wait that long? NO.

People should actually stop fooling themselves by thinking that their love will come back, that they will be happy waiting for someone, even if it is not waiting..they will be happy with the thought that they are in love...it ain't worth it. It never really is. When you love, make sure you feel it. Not just within but from the other side too. If you don't, then move on - find love elsewhere. [As I write this, I know I have hit the wrong chord. But then people, I am ready for your reactions. I just wrote what I feel today.]

Remember? You better do - one life, guys...one life. Don't let it go non-existent. Make the most of it. Every moment. Love or leave - but celebrate it. I do. I will make a concious effort to do....because I will be right here waiting - for life to show me whatever it can...good, bad, ugly, beautiful - have been seeing it all and have the will and the strength to see so much more.

EM DETIMILNU !!!!

Okay...I just finished writing a post and it did not publish. I hated it. Nevermind, a second attempt at it.

I wasn't feeling too bright when I reached home....reasons, well, too personal to be written here..but in a nutshell, I hate it when people go without telling me. So maybe that did it. Whatever. I did the usual chit chat with friends...and then after some web browsing.....dared to open up something that I was avoiding for long...and there I was, feeling enlightened. I was so happy that I wanted to write something really nice...but call it lazyness or whatever, all I could do was manage to refresh yet another post from my other blog...so here goes for you...am sure you will relate to this...(Disclaimer: for those who are done with emotions, remember, while there may not be the very firsts anymore, there is still a second time. : )....

...smittened by thoughts, I still believe in fairytales, in dreamlands, in the knight with shining armour, in a place called wilderness, in the nasty adventures, in the feeling that ignites passion, in the moment that gives you a lifetime, in the look that speaks a thousand words, in the touch that melts you, in the belief that makes you fight with the world, in the strength that fills you with energy to dream, in that blush that turns you pink, in that naive self that makes you feel like a fool, in all the firsts that you ever do...in that first shower of rains and love, in that skyline that spreads across limitless, in the thunder that gets you a high, in the cold that brings shivers to you longing for warmth...in the darkness that makes you crave for that first ray of sun....I still believe in 'Me'!!

Do you believe in yourself?