...yesterday was that kind of a day for me!!!
I don't know what to say - sometimes you want to give up on things because they just do not happen the way you wish them too. While you burn from within for the passion of it, you don't let it show because it doesn't make you look any better or make you feel any good. When you keep on wishing and hoping and trying in vain to make things work for you and they just don't and you keep wondering how to cope up with that situation and try silly things such as keeping yourself busy to the core so that you have no time left to think of 'that' particular thing...because the moment you think about it, you think of your failure in terms of not being able to reach where you wanted to...and then slowly you start giving up on those things...people...feeling...situations..and circumstances...and get used to living without them...
But..amidst all these things that you keep trying, if you just get luckyand things actually work out the way you wanted..how do you react? Well, you thank God..(I just did)...you become nervous because suddenly there is something that you always hoped for, but knew wouldn't happen HAS actually Happened. Performance anxiety...lolz...not really...just an overdose of satisfaction. God, thanks...don't know your ways but each time they just make me a happier person. I am thankful to everything that you have always given me, including this moment.
And how can I not mention my dear friend Sanjeev who has taught me to thank god everytime for everything that He has done for us...Sanjeev, this is one of the most special things that I have learnt in my life from you, besides trying (and failing umpteen times) to be a terrific human being like you. God Bless.
