..I slept pretty irritated and got up even more irritated - I hate everything about today - it is just one of those days when I just don't want to talk to anyone and just don't want to believe in anything.
I have every right to show my irritation and so I will....so the first one to the way things are at work - I am tired of doing the same bloody thing over and over again. It just does not seem to leave me, even though I seem to have changed roles. You are accountable for anything that is not right and in place. Deal with it. I will.
I planned for things well in advance only to find out that nothing can happen the way I planned because some things are just not in my control. So, I have given a notice to my landlord, whereas the family living in our house in Noida refuses to vacate the house. With nowhere to go and so many plans already in air, which includes my parents coming over, celebrating Mili's birthday and everything goes in thin air. Bloody well, deal with it. Yeah, for sure I will.
And last but no the least - confusions, misunderstandings, and explainations just don't seem to end for me in any and every relationship that I have with my friends. Each time, there is a new story and each time there is loads and loads of explanation. I have to hear things which I have never meant and done and said. I am held responsible for everything and anything that happens in someone's life. Everything that I did for the person is just ignored. I am tired. NO MORE of it. I will NEVER again hear it.
...and frendie, thanks for that conversation - it was heartfelt and this is nothing related to that....I guess am simply irriatated with the entire chain of events...it was the best thing you could do - call up and talk about it...I guess I really appreciate the person that you are...and I am sorry for what you felt....but some people I just can't forgive....I wanted to say it ..infact I actually wrote it...but then erased it..from here and from my memory - the best I can always do to myself is not generate negativity....whatever little was there, I leave it here, on this page!
