...Conspiracy

...I read it as point number 14 in someone's flickr stream...added that as one of the randoms that I know about myself. I am still so much in awe of it that I thought of posting it here as well for my memory...(and I really mean it when I say my memory because I have a short term memory...I completely forget things in no time. To give you an example, I forgot I had a customer call on friday morning. Realized after half an hour, when it was too late to join the call.) I would love to go through my blog and other sites that I am registered in and my writings when I at 60 or 70 and just feel happy with whatever happened in my life. Ain't the last stage of your life a means to remember you by gone days and be merry since there ain't much to look forward to at 70 or 80?

I always get distracted with so many other thoughts in my mind...that I come back to my point usually in the second paragraph! I better be conscious of the english teacher who reads my blog and comments on missing punctuations here and there (lolz!) - thanks..whoever it was...it atleast brings a smile to my face each time I think about it. Talking of point number 14 in Sharanya's flickr stream where she wrote..she actually dreams during the day as well....gets those screens in her mind and then waits for them to be in reality. I am exactly the same. There are certain things that I yearn for....I dream about them with my eyes open...I would see screens - in a sequence, the way I would want them to be...and then wait until the time they actually happen. I have also got into this habit of speaking out aloud whatever I want or wish. Sooner or later, I see that happening, which makes me want to believe Paulo's words...'when you really really want something, the whole universe conspires to get you close to that'. I think the universe exactly does that - you would never know but universe actually conspires and makes that happen. You desire, you let it out to universe or god..and then wait until that happens. Offlate..i have starting dreading this...even a silly wish or a thought in my mind...and it happens. My thoughts and wishes are usually insane and crazy. But then, God has a way of reminding you and letting you know that too. I get the hint often and do as God wants..yet there are many many times when I do things the way I want them, which may not be the right thing to do because at the end of everything, you have to settle your scores. With him. Definitely. So either keep check now or be prepared with your answers then.

Which now brings me to the other thought that just struck me. Do you fear the unknown? If you ask me, my answer is NO. I never fear the unknown. Things I know and am aware of - I have my fears associated with them. But anything that I don't know, I have no fear. I don't think anything beyond what I see, hear and feel. Not sure if that is right, not sure if that is how you should be, but's that's exactly how I am made. There is not much future that I have dwelved into, there is not much thought that has gone in planning for things which are 5 years down the line. I have seen people planning and thinking about years that are 5-10 years away (I really appreciate their thought-process and hope I could think like that). But I guess its just not me....can't think like that.

Leaving you with that thought. Oh byt the way, we had a party at our place (second in a row actually) after a long time and I am happy with the way we organized it and managed it. Manish's old gang was there and it was fun. We have decided to go out every month...this year onwards...and not crib that we are all approaching 40 now...! :D

I am off to Jaipur tomorrow again...will be there until thursday, and then gone to a resort close to jaipur for a strategy meet. Should be in Delhi back on Saturday. And oh yeah, did I tell you I was off to Daman and Diu next thursday for another offsite for 4 days/ Yeah yeah I know, its crazy but that's how it is.