Insane as I am (and those who do not know this about me shall very soon believe in what I say!) - I might change the name of my protagonist from 'Mithya' to something as wierd as 'Mars' or probably 'Ginger' in the book that shall be (and when that shall be is a big question in my head too) - but let me atleast make a confession here...I downloaded the template I wanted to use for my book and actually created 8 pages yesterday. But as I created them and copied some of my posts from the blog to that template, i relaized I was not very happy with what I was writing. I can't hold everyone's attention by just writing about my life. It has to be a mix of everyone's life. Of what most of the people around me think and behave and act and work and whatever else. (Beware, which just means I will be closely looking into your lives as well, thinking the way you think and also asking you questions at times at the cost of overwhelming you at times with my undue interest in you and your thoughts.)
I am not sure if my book will sell - that's actually not the intent - I have to write something that I have dreamt of for all these years. I have to write what happens in life - mine, yours and everyone else's. I have to talk about the entanglements in our relationships, the purity in few others, the love and lust factor (and this has intimidated me time and again) - what wins over what (I know am raising a lot of questions now...I like to do that.), whether all of us always know if what we run after is love and not sheer lust or vice versa, if everytime we really realize whether we are in love, okay..if at all we think about a relationship to the level of actually thinking whether it is love or otherwise, if what I felt 5 years back as a person, do I feel the same now in my thirties, and would I continue to feel the same in my 40's and 50's? What would it be like to fall in love when I am 50 - blindly in love that is. :) ofcourse with some one other than my husband (!!!) - how would I react to my daughter falling in love with two people at the same time, or my best friend falling for me after almost 50 years of our lives.
Random, that was. Don't shout back at me. I do not hate what I just wrote..and it wasn't gross...mind can think right. So this and so much more that I want to talk and write and then let people read. Do you think it is crazy enough to be writing something as dreaded as I just explained? If it is, am game. Crazy - yeah that's what it should get the feeling out. :)
I have loved being crazy - in love or otherwise. Have you?
9 comments:
Mon , you are a sydney sheldon in making :) Write, ill buy:)
oops..the comment appeared twice so i deleted the first
Lot of M's .....Monika,Manish,Mishi.....& Mithya-trust me you already have buyers for the book....and I agree-the intent is not commercial...it's personal...am glad u r on ur way....a long journey begins with a simple step.....Go for MARS instead of Ginger...starts with an M you see. For everyone who's had the privilege of knowing you-the book is already a best seller...and as to your question WHAT IS LOVE....you have a book in your mind-see if you can answer that...I can't-people better than me tried...you give it your twist-will wait for MITHYA to see the light....and no, I have never loved being crazy-typical capricorn control freak you see...but mercifully,had friends who never subscribed to my views....my life is brighter thanks to them-GOD BLESS
Crazy? Yes, I went crazy after reading this post.. this is gonna be an amazing book... and I'm definitely buying it :) These questions have always fascinated me!
very interesting thoughts....so here is some more food for thought..and may be you could chew on it and make meat for your book...
lust is the begining of most romantic relationships...lust not in any peverted sense...but as sexual attraction...fulfilled/ unfullfilled depending on the age/stage..of the people involved......this electric attraction then developes to a time when the couple wants to spend more time with each other...and they begin to feel good about themselves when with the other...and so love begins to develope...and truer love really sets in when the "heat" so to say of the chemistry has died down..and then there is a comfort in just being around the beloved..the adjustments...the compromises...that you are willing to make for the other..that is the starting of a true love ....my thoughts....
on some other things...do you stop eating, sleeping, laughing when you are 50??..then why should you not be loving ...romatically so?? if anything with greater maturity and understanding...that kindda relationship would probably mature to love sooner...than when you are younger ...
all the best wd your writing ...
Sharanya - I will make sure you buy. You will find glimpses of your life in there too...scared? just kidding. :)
Mr Doctor - Mars..? are you serious? I was only kidding..but on second thoughts, we should actually name all the characters like that..and perhaps few others such as brutus, scotch..and chamko and chumchum ? Sounds good? getting back to serious stuff...LOVE...yeah a book in mind and plethora of experiences to prove everything that i think and write as crap. :) That't life. But through the book, I will evolve...in my thoughts..atleast that's what I look forward to.
Sakshi - I have 3 readers already...thats not a bad count to start with...am glad you like those crazy thoughts...there are many more..will keep writing.
Anonymous - WHO are you? You explained it just perfect....but for my lack of understanding of the subject. yet to figure out what you wrote after 'heat'. Infact, yet to acknowledge would be apt to say. I like your expression of thought. Thanks for your time and next time write with your name.
scared noo noo ill be proud someone wrote abt me :D hehe do an interview and all ok..ill tell more :D
~sharanya
Mars was pure jest.....u already have a good name in mind-go with your flow-god speed in this endeavour....cause eager to see this book & read it
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