I don't understand - I just don't understand..sometimes and off late most of the times, I fail to understand some things. Question to me before any of you asks - why am I bothered? Well, honestly am not. But am curious.
Or may be I am bothered coz somewhere it matters. I am not sure and I don't want to be sure either. What do I do? I don't panic. I don't loose patience. I keep quite. I do some silly things once in a while, realize and then stop doing them as well. And then I think and I keep thinking. When I get tired of thinking, I start making assumptions. When my assumptions fall in place - form an opinion...when that opinion is what my heart wants to believe in - I readily believe in that opinion formed and be happy or sad as per what I feel. When I feel happy, I draw a conclusion. When I feed sad, I again draw another conclusion. Net net I conclude. Ah...we have reached a conclusion..and all this without anyone other than me in the scene. Great going..let's hear what comes next.
So depending on what I conclude, I decide what I want to do. Whether to fight or let the moment and the whole esssence along with it go by. There are times when I chose to move on from the situation and there were also times when I got stuck deeper into it. :)
This is a sheer example of a one way communication. But, all this while there was no one else in the situation than I, me, and myself. Is it a lot different for you? I am sure it is. I won't be surprised is it ain't. Sometimes, there is so much of a silence and distance among friends, families, people, religions, countries...that you turn to your on-your-own cycle of thoughts...you can't afford to do anything else because there is your sweet and strong ego to back you. You can't and shouldn't fool around with your ego, right? You cannot even dare to go against it.
Hmm..that's just life...and that's just me..!!!
This one again for my records.
3 comments:
id just ask myself, am i happy after doing all i did..If yes, then there is nothing to worry.
One need to answer oneself and i think thats about it rest can be managed :)
For me I am important more than anything else in this world. This may be a lil too selfish when you read..but thats the truth some say and some dont :) I dare to :)
~sharanya
It is not selfish at all sharanya...for me as well, I am more important than anyone else and it will always be so...when you are happy with yourself, everyone else will be happy too...
I agree when you are content and happy..everything else will fall in place.
i know a very very successfull lady ok She is Vp of a particular function has about 20 yrs of work exp and is married for about 18 yrs. They have a daughter and once when i was talking to her generally about life she told me..for me first its me, then my daughter, then my driver, then my maid and then my husband...lol
if my maid and driver dont turn up my life is upside down :)
thats when i realised that its not wrong to put yourself on top :))
Shine on :))
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