Ye Dil Maange MORE...

I can’t believe it has been so long am off the virtual world – guess the real life is proving to be much more challenging than I thought it would. I obviously miss the presence of all those I connect through the net – specifically Sakshi (my shweet little friend), Hello World (A person so full of affections), my new found friends – Elusive, Impressionist, Kshitij, Anjali…Jlo (her queer comments!), Aawargi – her once in a blue moon comments [But these two I am connected every hour..], Doc – my support system, Murari – His amazingly cute comments and thought process, the philosophical Om and his humorous comments, West Shine (Madamoiselle Wisdom)….and so much more! But hey, you are there with me in my thoughts....

Life to sum it up for myself is on wheels off late – over 3 hours of driving everyday, settling down in the new place and working on an RFI with two goals in hand – project management as well as transitions…am somehow pulling along – don’t know what comes next but this day, this hour, am only learning…doing mistakes and again learning…and I like that form of unlearning a great deal from so many years now. Sometimes, I want to repeat my mistakes…and trust me, I do that. :D ..and then I do them over and over again…and now I am smiling because naughtiness gets into my head again (as usual)…and I want to write what I am itching to - they say ‘flattery gets you nowhere…I have never believed in this..I say ‘Flattery always and always gets you wherever you want to go”…. Love the Fun or Fun up the Love – either ways you enjoy…sheesh..that was not supposed to make sense..so let us talk sense now…

It is fun to be busy in life – and however challenging life may seem….IT…makes you crave for more time, makes you cherish the little that you have for yourself, makes you want more of everything, makes you dream so much more, and makes you realize the importance of time that is just about to slip away. As I write this, I begin to think of so much more that still remains unexplored, unwound, uncherished (if I may use that word), unspoken and unfelt (permit me!!!)…as if that was not enough…here I go again…the depths of a human heart, the wilderness of the Wild, the freshness of the breezes, the divinity of the human kind and the one Up Above, the passion of working beyond recognition of any sorts, the innocence and warmth of emotions, a feel that’s just so out of world, the time that you want to spend understanding those little kids, yaari dosti ki inteha, chillam chilli, jhakaas nautanki doston ki, aur phir unka pyaar bhi, beauty in all forms - raw, chiselled and unseen...bus ab dimaag kaam nahi kar raha. While so much and more than “so much more” may already would have been explored..there is still room for yet so much more. Have I lost it? I usually do – periodically. So bear with me…oh come on, I don’t need to tell you this anymore…you have been reading that and knowing me, you know it by heart now.

So, I await life and Life, you gotta’ wait for me – here I am!