Thursday, February 07, 2008

Way Too Many...

..I slept pretty irritated and got up even more irritated - I hate everything about today - it is just one of those days when I just don't want to talk to anyone and just don't want to believe in anything.
I have every right to show my irritation and so I will....so the first one to the way things are at work - I am tired of doing the same bloody thing over and over again. It just does not seem to leave me, even though I seem to have changed roles. You are accountable for anything that is not right and in place. Deal with it. I will.
I planned for things well in advance only to find out that nothing can happen the way I planned because some things are just not in my control. So, I have given a notice to my landlord, whereas the family living in our house in Noida refuses to vacate the house. With nowhere to go and so many plans already in air, which includes my parents coming over, celebrating Mili's birthday and everything goes in thin air. Bloody well, deal with it. Yeah, for sure I will.
And last but no the least - confusions, misunderstandings, and explainations just don't seem to end for me in any and every relationship that I have with my friends. Each time, there is a new story and each time there is loads and loads of explanation. I have to hear things which I have never meant and done and said. I am held responsible for everything and anything that happens in someone's life. Everything that I did for the person is just ignored. I am tired. NO MORE of it. I will NEVER again hear it.
...and frendie, thanks for that conversation - it was heartfelt and this is nothing related to that....I guess am simply irriatated with the entire chain of events...it was the best thing you could do - call up and talk about it...I guess I really appreciate the person that you are...and I am sorry for what you felt....but some people I just can't forgive....I wanted to say it ..infact I actually wrote it...but then erased it..from here and from my memory - the best I can always do to myself is not generate negativity....whatever little was there, I leave it here, on this page!

12 comments:

Anonymous said...

Hey Buddy whats up ? Whats driving you so low, will talk to u today.....Nami

~ ॐ ~ said...

theek hoja jaldi

That was it... said...

@Nami - thanks for your call...it was refreshing! Take care.

@Om - theek hun bilkul...:-)

Fighter Jet said...

Chillax! and enjoy :)

That was it... said...

@Fighter jet - How? Tell me....I desparately need to know that.

Anonymous said...

Just hang in there. I am confident that you will sail through these rough waters.

Satanic Angel said...

nice blog you got here..and the jlo pictures i must say are real nice!

Unknown said...

Theek hone ka ek hi tarika hai...........draw a bigger line in front of the line you are already so focussed on...............life is a bitch, call it one and move on in search of a bigger bitch. Trust me you will find so much crap out there that whatever makes you feel low right now will seem miniscule. And once you feel better, set out to clean that crap that you have so graciously discovered. If it gets cleaned, your feeling low was worth every moment.......so get on the roll now...........you are on a mission.......remember to do and be your best ;)

West

That was it... said...

@Murari - your confidence sometimes kills....thanks...

@Elusive - Welcome to my page..and thanks so much...

@West - welcome back...where have you been? I agree to what you say..I don't have a choice...and you have every right to say what you say...and we both know that....Mission, ys please and I love the fact you reminded me...

Anonymous said...

Zindagi hai ,to mushkilein hain.......only the dead have no problems. But,my pal is way too good and way too cool-you can handle it,and then some more...........As you pointed out in a previous post,WHAT DOES A FRIEND DO WHEN HE SEES SOMEONE THIS LOW...........dunno really,but want to remind you how good Laura is under pressure-she will always find a way to come through...as faujis say-when the going gets tough,the tough get going

Anonymous said...

@Doc...thanks buddy...am fine...though not the usual chirpy self but should be good soon...

Anonymous said...

Welcome back-and,yup....nightingale's should be chirpier-take care