...no sleep.
After a considerable trial, I decided to sit up and start writing. This seems to have become a habit for me. Sometimes the energy flow is such that I can't waste it and sleep tight. Too many things on my mind - and the worst part is they bloody stay. They come to my mind to stay put - as if I invited them, as if they had nothing else to do, as if my mind was some junkyard, as if I intended doing justice to them, as if they did not have a better place to be (!). So here goes my loadshedding - I better do it if I need my energies saved for the tight schedule tomorrow at work...and for all other goodies...
1. I will decide about the land when and only if I want it. Just because it is available doesn't make it sell-able for me. I desperately wanted it at one point, but today, when I have let it go, I need time to rethink.
2. Extra hard work - I got this compliment from someone today and I felt like a fool. I haven't really worked in last two days and I have to catch up with it fast starting tomorrow, if I want the project to flow smooth.
3. That brings me to the next load - what the hell have I been doing if I haven't worked for last two days? I have been graciously busy establishing connections - with who's who of the world.
4. Needless to guess the next load, which is a big WHY? Why the hell am I doing it? My answer is - I don't know. Do you know? Have you ever thought about it? Why do we get involved in knowing other people? Why do we start our non-stop nonsense with people we have never crossed ways with, people who are in a distant land? People who are remotely connected to you, people at your work place who you know only by names?
5. I have to catch up with Sam and Jai and Amit/Rash - and I don't know how to figure out the logistics...they all are here only for 3-4 days and are living in different corners of Delhi.
6. Last but not the least - I have to find time to read all stories including 'The Ramayana' so that next time Mishi asks me to narrate one to her, I am not lost and I don't hear her saying 'Enough of cindrella and Snowwhite and Hanumanjee'. (By the way, today I told her 'Shravan's story and felt pretty good about the fact that I could get away from the cindrella syndrome.
Load little less than it was before. Yet, there are miles to go before I sleep....
13 comments:
You have promises to keep|
& miles to go before you sleep||
this sounds like an interesting post... and something that i could write every day before i sleep or should i say that i surrender to the night...
and this weekend you are going to the hills arn't you? lovely !!!
I bet the compliment was well-deserved! Good luck for the project and the hills :)
Anony...yeah right..promises to kep and promises to break as well.
Om, trip cancelled - project deadlines stringent for us in the team.
Sakshi, the compliment would have been well deserved, had I been working then..but today, I covered it up...
oops... not the best of the news... but then i have heard of trips getting cancelled over and over again...
for some reason in India fun, and non-work activities are not at all treated important...
at the same time, i see so much of a change in firangland towards it... they work hard... and don't really cancel fun plans either...
Yeah..indian organizations need to be comforting to the employees...
I am pretty irritated because of the cancellation...
you are right... the organisations do not really encourage a work life balance here...
probably because we earn in currencies that are much stronger than ours... and one hour of work by an employee in India, helps sell something worth much much more...
so our organisations are happy doing that tradeoff of employee personal live vs. the money they earn from the time they stole from the personal life...
on a second thought, i think a lot of us also participate in the entire screwup by putting the work on a higher level than our own lives. Its not too bad a thing to be done a lot of times... but if that becomes a habit, we are causing a damage not only to us, but the entire industry somehow...
I like the second thought quite a lot - it is us who screw up by putting the work much higher than anything else. But the cut throat competition makes you work and also the fact that the pressure is high as you go higher up.
Quite a thought - thanks for sharing.
Like a lot of other places, we gotta ask ourselves a question...
WHEN DO WE STOP?
hmmmmmm....I get it. When it comes to me, there is now no stopping for me - not in next 5 years. Maybe once I have got what I want, I will begin to tread on a new path.
"what I want" is a never ending relentless quest.........the more you get, the more you want..........wants and desires simply manifest themself in different forms.
"Want or Need"???
Very very tricky...
what makes you think you would not want anything new in the next 5 years...
this is a very strange thing that we say... we will stop when we get what we want... want is a continous thing.. you get something and then you want something else...
you will never stop that way...
like west says...
need is a better term... though the needs change too, but i guess they drive us towards satisfaction... wants don't...
personal thought ...
hmmm...West, I can't argue on this one..you are right there...'neverending relentless quest'. That's life.
Om, I agree...you need and want and desire and seek for more and more and more. Sometimes, though, you just stop at a point.
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