...got a mail yesterday from someone ' your blog misses you'. I guess the line was enough to wake me up from my long sleep. Sometimes, I am really thankful to the readers of my blog for the attention they give to my posts and in a way to me. They actually help me in keeping up with the pace of this virtual world. Often times you tend to forget that you also exist virtually for so many of your audience....and then come those reminders which compel you to live again.
Coming back to my state of affairs, I have been relatively free only since yesterday - but to my dismay I realized that the office IT folks have suddenly become smarter and restricted access to your blog sites as well. So, the only time I can view and write posts is when am home...and so there will surely be a decrease in my posts. I am a busy woman, you see. :-) Well, that sure was a joke...where there is a will, there is a way, as they say....
Last week was crazy - coming back from work at 6.30, going back to work at 8.00 pm and then working till past midnight for all five days....some operating leaders are just so difficult to cope up with. They want to do everything their own way. You have to shout and scream literally to get your way out. Last two weekends went by catching up on sleep and relaxing at home except for the saturday late nights...two consecutive saturdays when we were out till about 3.00 am in the morning. Manish and his old airtel gang - whenever they regroup after a gap, they usually are up all night. But it was fun - I like the entire group...very nice people. The day-afters were obviously spent in catching up on sleep.
I watched almost all the movies - aawarapan, naqaab, cheeni kum, aap ka suroor...i guess I liked cheeni kum out of all. I loved tabu and AB's attitude - what classy rudeness in their attitude. In my lifetime, I have seen such people too and silently have drawn a fascination to their attitude. Liked the girl in naqaab - fresh looks...only liked 1-2 songs of aap ka surror and aawaarapan....and that's about all.
Got a silver award again for my performance (I wonder when will I get that much awaited platinum award and a trip to the likes of barcelona and french reviera) and hence some life style coupons this month - yesterday went and bought a nice lamp with antique finish. Only when I bought it was I wondering if at all will it go with my otherwise different furniture. Ah, how could I forget this - i got a nice low bed for our bedroom - i designed it - it has that italian finish and is simply awesome. I also got a nice centre table. The next thing that I have designed is a console, with some blosk designs on the mirror on top. On the console, I am fitting up a square wooden board on which I have done some creativity with buttons, sitaras etc and it is multicolored. I hope it comes out to be good - the guy charged me 17k to make it, it better be good. Mona and shopping go hand in hand - on can't live without another and vice versa. No more for the month, for sure.
Listen to the other part of my story - am completely and all done with this business of working for a BPO for a living. The drive to do something more than what I am doing is increasing day by day - I get sleepless nights sometimes. I have so much on my mind and it just isn;t happening. Someone once told me, I know you can do it and you will do it...but why ain't I being able to do it. There are so many things which are not in my hand. For almost 3 months now, I have been chasing one thing - the basic thing. And sadly enough, I can't seem to make things work. God, don't do this to me - I have been chasing after my dreams - help me materialize them. I can do muchy much more than what I am doing and I hate it. This is not where I belong. I don't want to waste my creativity and my energy in doing pre sales for a BPO, when I think big and dream big. Get me that god thing that I want so much - I have chased enough, I can't take it forcefully, can I? Starting my search from scratch is futile - I gave my heart out to that piece of land the moment I saw it. And I want it. Somehow, anyhow.
Woosh, that was a long post...it is 10 am in the morning and as usual, I am late for WOrK...JESUS, save me...folks, have a great day...and don't forget, be good to yourself and everybody else....and keep the faith alive!!
2 comments:
It's like a bungee jump. Jumping is the difficult bit; once you jump you'll enjoy it all the way. So just jump without thinking too much, because you must absolutely have to; and you know that, don't you?
And yeah, if you want to be able to post from office. Go to your blogger account > Settings; Define a secret email address and yippee. Whenever you want to post simply send an email to the secret address you defined
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