You and I

For a change, I have time and I am relatively free - until ofcourse another RFP hits upon me. Last couple of days were not so good - reacting to my poor lonely self, I almost went overboard, pitying and trying to nurse myself.

But what the heck - each and every one of us is sailing in the same boat. Just that some keep it to themselves and others (like me) open up. Some even get offended with the fact that you are exposing yourself and your privacy. To me, it doesn't matter - I don't care because I am not here to cast an impression on others. I am what I am! And I may tend to feel like that sometimes.

More so because I felt all alone in trying to be good to my little one, who for some reasons, did not feel too well within. I knew she was upset about something but couldn't understand what. It was more than just those bouts of irritability that kids of her age usually are into. It worried me and I almost wondered if there was a better way of dealing than the way I was. My world revolves around her and any change in the normal routine, that upsets her, makes me feel helpless.

Reminds me to memorize those songs for her - (I never paid attention to those toughies until she began singing (trying to sing), and then she said 'Mumma, sing', when she couldn't)

And mommy tried singing...

'chanda chamke cham cham,

cheekhe jo ganna chor,

cheeti chaate chini,

chatori cheeni khor'

You have to hear her sing to beleive how cute kiddos are...(another song that seems to be her favourite is 'sarfaroshi ki tammana, ab hamare dil main hai...though it is "sadfadoshi" for her...)

My kidzie, you gonna' rock - just a matter of few years. We will be a band of two - you and I. I did tell you how much I love you in the morning, yet, want to tell you again - I love you!