...I better be here than anywhere else. Like one of those times, I am yet again lost within myself.
I invite troubles like nobody's business. Everyday it is the same stupid story. I make myself vulnerable, indulge in almost every kind of stupid venture, go with the flow and forget who I am and what my world comprises of, listen to people when they say 'go with the flow'...don't think too much, inherit and borrow perceptions from everywhere, let others decide my perceptions about things, and when I am in that 'Can't-help-it' mode - I get put off and lost. To top it all, people tell me to mind my own business. And I actually decide to do that.
Do you often lose it like I do? Do you often drag yourself in these crazy situations and let others decide what happens to you? Do you sometimes make a complete fool of yourself in front of others and then try to make up for it with yet another stupid excuse? Do you find yourself in a spot where you cannot even laugh at yourself? Do you assume things on your own and lose the perspective of things that are meant to be? Do you anytime switch to a world that ain't and never shall be?
Please tell me you do. Tell me I am not the only one like that. I feel like a small kid right now, lost and wondering where to go....its like...don't want to give up on the toy, don't know what to do with the toy...can't give it to someone else....
6 comments:
I have been there :D
and then laughed at myself too...
tension nai lene ka Mon :D we all are in the same boat :D
Have walked a few difficult roads myself.....as I mentioned once,when the going gets tough-the tough get going.It's a vulnerable side of you that's new to me-always believe that Laura is strong enough and better than the best. Remember writing once-THIS TOO SHALL PASS.............troubles will wither away-oh,and I do keep switching of to my personal world that ain't ,may never be but is still my own.You take care,of yourself and the little kid that doesn't know what to do with the toy-have a hunch that the kiddo will soon figure out that she's fine with or without the toy and that life is still calling out-god bless
@Om - thank you! Though it definitely doesn't help knowing that we all are in the same boat...even if we are, I feel directionless and lost totally..but I know what you mean buddy....thanks for being around...and I hope I laugh at myself soon enough.
@Doc - you are right...we do keep switching to that personal world of our own, whether it ain't or shall never be. And sooner than enough, we realize it. Guess it is time for me to figure out what I want to do with my toy. :-) Thank you! Like I said before, it is your faith in me that keeps me going sometimes. Cherio.
Om is absolutely right...all of us come across such phases..so don't worry too much..I am sure you will be able to laugh on this very post very soon..Cheers!
Arre apun ke bolne ka matbal hai maidam... ke sab waise hi hain... in other words, you are absolutely unique, just like everybody else :D
enjoy karo...
khush raho..
bless you :)
@Sakshi...I hope so too, dear...and me not worrying nemore...
@Om, enjoying every bit of it...trust me on that...and about being unique..oh yeah..always, like everybody else! He he he
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