Disclaimer: I started it and it had to end and so here it is..but I don't want to write such stories again - especially those which have any kind of resemblance to a real life scenario...it does not leave me feeling good...and so while I conclude the 'Fire & Ice' post, am sorry if it hurts you somewhere.
Sometimes, just sometimes, you find the meaning to the words you just threw up in the air. A similar thing happened with me as well. While I was writing my posty on Fire & Ice, I was happy with what I created – it almost looked like a real story to me. Except, the end of the story. I did not have an end to define for the story. Agreed the fire was there. I also agreed on the icy chill that followed. But to question the chill was more than important. Why was there a chill? I stopped. I did not have an answer. I let the story be. I just let it be, concluding with a sentence that we will see where the story goes.
Just before I went to bed the same evening – I knew the end of that story. Sometimes, just sometimes, you find the meaning to the words you throw up in the air. Sometimes, there are people around to show you or rather lead you to the end of a story. I was unfortunately lucky this time. Although it was a fiction for me but I guess it wasn’t so for someone out there. What follows is this:
Lack of expression was the key, the reason, and ‘the be all and end all’ of the story. The fire, though ablaze, wasn’t ready to be seen, to be felt, to be heard, to just be there. Laying blames on each other, not realizing the feeling within, they just drifted apart, picking up their lost pieces. Or perhaps they just stopped caring for their relationship. They did not realise that no relationship can ever work on an automatic mode. You have to work towards nurturing, caring, and supporting a relationship. "When someone hurts us, we should write it down in sand where winds of forgiveness can erase it away. But, when someone does something good for us, we must engrave it in stone where no wind can ever erase it.". They did the reverse of this. Those markings on the stone are all that is left of their relationship.
The worst you can do in a dying relationship is to believe that it is dying.
There was nothing more for me to state – it comes straight from someone who goes through the pain and hence I leave it at that. God bless.
(P.S:I am sorry for the ‘quote’ unquote here.)
10 comments:
hmm...
@Murari.....:)
@Om - don't understand that expression...:-)
oh yes i never understand hmmms either, though i hmmm a lot.
coming to ur post - i like the part - no relationship runs on automatic mode..that's bang on.
it was not an expression...
just an acknowledgment of hearing what you wrote... thats it :)
har engine maintenance maangta hai, to life ki gaadi ka engine koi exception thode hi hai...............
hmmmmmm..........I think that expression means ki poora padha aur kahin woh thought tann se man main takra gaya ;))))))))
@Elusive - yeah..but we don't usually do anything to switch from automatic to manual...do we? Not with every relationship, for sure...
@Om, okay that way...
@ West...life ki gaadi ki baat kahan ki..ek relationshp ki baat ki, jisme tum akele kuch nahi kar sakte...kyunki do log hai na, baba...
Aapka hmmmm kaafi achcha sa hai! ;-)
arey baba, relationships bhi to life ki gaadi ka hi ek dibba hai..........it takes two in a relationship, but generally we tend o see ki doosre ne kya nahin kiya as opposed to ki humse kya karne se rah gaya.........to bhaiya relationship ki gaadi bhi to life ki gaadi ka ek bada sa dibba hai.......yaad hai na...love is a decision. So why at a point we forget what we had decided.
Just yesterday I was telling Kartik that it is easy to be good when the going is good, however it is the rough times that truly test whats in us........thats just what relationships are about.............do log itne kareeb aa jate hain ki unki parchhaiyaan bhi ek ho jaati hain, phir ghupp andhera aur us andhere main saaya bhi saath chod deta hai.....aise main woh dono log apne astitva ko dhoondhne lagte hai....us parchaai ko jisne unka saath chod diya tha..........bajay ki us haath ko jo us andhere main bhi ek doosre ke liye "shayad" aage badh sakta tha..........yahan par "automatic mode gear shift main badal jaata hai and gaadi phir se first gear main daalni padti hai, GPS main destination phir se feed karni padti hai, aur gaadi chal padti hai...........par chalane waala bhi chahiye...........gaadi ek haath se par chaar pahiyon par chalti hai.......koi bhi initiate kare, par kare to........anyways!!!
So it had to end-to tell you the truth,am a bit disappointed because your ending was a bit like my writings...a bit dark.Wish u could have found as cool an end as the start.........ok-that does not mean that you wrote bad,the words were perfect in their pain. Reminded me of the song-JAANE WOH KAISE LOG THE JINKE PYAAR KO PYAAR MILA........would actually love to see you write HAPPY-and that's mighty difficult.....see if you can prove me wrong......keep smiling-it does get reflected in your soul and in your writing..........so-to happier times and happier writes/blogs-eagerly awaiting your next issue......take your time
@West, you rock with what you say..lekin kabhi kabhi do log itne kareeb aa hi nahi paate ki perchaiyon tak baat pahunche...samjhe...ye us context ki baat thi meri jaan. I can't start giving you examples of your so many boyfriends...but tu samajh ja na...:-)
@Doc...I understand your disappointment and I was also hoping for a happy end...however, it just did not seem possible and like I said, it somehow got related to a real life scenario...and then I just let it be...But Doc..aapke liye ek special happy ending wali love story very soon on cards...and I will dedicate that to you....shayad usme bhi aapko koi haqiqat dikhe...:-)
Take ur time on this one
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