Detached...& To Dos...

...I began writing about my observations on the art of photography and then I erased it all. Too early to be writing about it..and besides, I should go slow. The restlesness about it is fine as long as it learns to wait awhile. They say patience is a must for anything and everything that is creative in nature. So now my next question to myself will be 'if not that, then what?' Something or the other needs to be working in my mind all the time (that's how I am rather my grey cells are tuned in..)..else I feel very detached....infact that happens to me with people too...I get detached pretty fast...if there is nothing interesting coming out of any encounter that I have with others, I tend to get detached...there needs to be something constantly happening around me to feel the heat of things...yes I know what that means and I also know that I am getting used to being busy all the time...trying out something or the other in order to keep going...without a day or two in between to breath or possibly just do nothing. But no, I can't do without being like that. Not that I have tried ever...if it happens not by choice..then I sulk big time. And interestingly enough, I sunao people around me that I am sulking. Aawargi, Jlo, Divsy and so many others would relate to what I am saying here..but why am I telling this to you? No, I am talking to myself...trying to reiterate some things to myself...and I also know why am I writing this...I am not working much these days..and I hate that fact...am so used to working 10-12 hours at a stretch...and for last 15 days..it is is just no work..honeymoon time with the role change...though my previous boss has loaded me with one RFI yesterday evening and my next few days will pass by in trying to get another girl up the learning curve on this one...I still miss that hard core work that I did for so many months now...and besides work...here is my to do...

1. I have planned a trip out of town in the month of June...still wondering where to go..I guess I will trust my other traveller friends on this one...I wanted to go to Spiti Valley..but somehow it does not appeal to me anymore..so destination will be planned soon..but the idea of going remains strong in thoughts. And I know I WILL go..

2. So that's one..the second thing on my mind is working out and Gym deadline for me is 20th March - I will hit it much before that and work out like never before. Thanks to some people for this inspiration...they talk gym gym and just that all the time with me..and my dear husband who has no other passion as much as his daily work outs...and run....so extra calories burning time sooner than you think! Not sure for how long, though. :D

3. Music...aha...I need to collect some good dvds and cds......good old classics chahiye mere ko...like Casablanca.....Offlate I began listenining to 'Sade' - liked some of the songs but it did not take me long to get bored....kuch achcha sun na hai...batao kuch....Talking about songs, I haven't sat with my music sir for almost 20 days now...my throat was so bad that I could not sing at all. This saturday I could have tried but I was not home...I wonder how will I catch up on the lost times..and with this shifting, I wonder if at all I will be regular with it. Whenever anything goes out of routine..it just leaves me feeling lost. Does it happen to you as well? I get acoustomed to a routine living very fast and then if I have to break something out of that routine, it irritates me. Okay so back to cds...tell me some good ones.

4. I mentioned buying a camera - once I have it, I will start planning the themes and shoots once again...I wish I had the time and the right company - sala dhoom macha deta big time. Right company tou hai ...hope it stays...and hope I get the same passion. :- )

5. Ek exam 'LOMA' crack karne ka hai very soon. That's level 1 which has two papers...LOMA 280 and 290 - was on my mind for about 6 months and just got the approval from my boss yesterday for the first one. One of my friends got inspired too and is doing that with me..combined studies (!) lolz...

...I am happy with this post - I actually spoke to myself and got charged up once again. I, like all of you, panick without defined tasks for me. With a smile, I leave you all under God's care...take the care very much and keep smiling folks. And pray I live up to what I just mentioned.