2B Or Not2B

...Can I keep myself away from these nagging thoughts about life and its viscious circles? Not for long I guess. Too many thoughts in my mind - but will take one at a time to avoid confusion...as I unleash one, there are two other playing on...seeking paper respite...but you gotta' wait.

...my last post and the comments there have opened a plethora of thoughts - debatable, yes and no...so we will come back to those later, if we at all do and feel the need. For now and here, it is 'to be or not to be'.

To let life play with you or be cautious, to just let things flow the way they flow or perhaps do a reality check somewhere, get facts in place and then a series of additions/deletions/multiplications/divisions and finally the sum! if you ask me this question, pat comes the reply 'it depends on situations..it also depends on my need for xyz situations'. But if I think more, it is not even the situation or my need for that situation - sometimes the situation gets the better off you when you start failing in your attempts to keep the situation in control. Similarly, need or no need it was in the beginning, soon it becomes an inherent requirement, an indispensable one! Phew!!! Not once, not twice, I guess am three times a victim and perhaps even more. Stop thinking about me, you am sure would have equally been into such a soup yourself umpteen times. Why do we do what we do? And knowingly? Pity.

How many times at work do you sit and analyze the day that went by - what was 'out-of-the-ordinary' that I did, was I able to meet the committed target, am I raising my bars with every day, will I get the time to do something other than what I am supposed to do....thinking beats all..but when we come to doing, we miserably fail.

Competition - another word that is favourite among so many of us. Well, there is a constant need for it. Yet, it is not everything that you want to do. It should not be a must do - I guess I agree with my friend 'West' here when she says that the only person you compete with is yourself. I would want to do that all the time and whenever I do, I amuse myself and the person in me.

Many of my readers in the past have asked me 'what was the thought behind the stuff that you wrote. While I like the fact that they are keen on me as a person than what I write as a writer...I guess it is small little things from everyday life that trigger these posties that I write. The thought behind what I wrote today was 'Should I pursue what I am getting into'. I see the carrot already in what I am getting into, but there sure is going to be a terrible digestion problem later. Just wondering whether I should be or not be, what I want to be. :-) And to add another thought, there is a reality check for anything and everything we do in life - we usually don't let things flow by...it's your precious life, afterall.

Don't come back to me and say you did not understand a word of this post. I am not sure I understood either. :D