Undo the pAiNs...

My fingers itched to start typing – I has so many thoughts in my mind..yet I waited for the blogger to open up the god damn new post screen. After a considerable wait, I decided to use the word doc and later copy the post when the connection was better. (Duffer? Quite right. That’s how I like to acknowledge myself lately.)

Before I let go of this thought in mind, I somehow wanted to pen it somewhere. Park it in my blog screen. There is something missing in my life. Not something, but a lot more. Infact quite a bit, if I go on the thinking spree. But what the heck, there are those few I know who have nothing in their lives. The destiny plays cruel tricks and off goes their sanity, happiness and peace of mind.

Is it yet another bhakti channel telecast from me? (Laughing out loud.. See, when people write not-so-good comments, they stay in your mind, even though you decide not to react to them. I am yet to reach that stage (read state) when such thoughts don’t get the reaction in me and when they don’t stay in mind too.) Not quite. It is another passing thought in my mind.

The other day I spoke to someone I know for almost 40-45 minutes. I shudder at the thought of that conversation. I couldn’t believe it was for real. Do we human beings tend to cause so much of pain to others. I guess I never really knew the real pain until I experienced it, until my close friend faced it, and until I heard it first hand from someone who was in deep pain.

Okay, this is so thought provoking for me that I managed to hear this statement from my little mishi ‘ mumma is very very bad’. Reason – I gave her a spanking because she would not let me write. Why do I get so unreasonable at times? That’s a separate discussion altogether. Sometime else.

For now just the thought that why do we human beings give so much of pain to others? Do we realize we almost succeed in taking other’s sanity? Does it ever occur to us what others would be going through at any point of time? Do we underestimate the amount of pain that we can give or do we think people forego the pain and come out of it soon? Or is it that we just don’t care?


We don't care whether a person lives or dies?
We don't care if the person loses his/her self esteem?
We don't care whether the person goes down on his/her self respect?
We don't get care whether the person goes insane?
We don't care if the person never wakes up to a sunshine?
We don't care if the person goes deep down into depression?

...Endless list of questions. I guess each ne of us must go back in time and atleast make an effort to lessen, if not ease off the pain completely, that we would ahve at any point in time, given to someone. Come on, people....one life. We only have one life. How can we, in that one life, give pains to others?

Undo the pains.
Unbreak the hearts.
Unfail the dreams.

...good thought to sleep with tonight - I hope when I get up tomorrow morning, I wake up to this thought and try and ease off some pains.